late yesterday, the penn state radio station aired an audio recording from sandusky giving a similar statement and reacted to what he called the worst loss of his life. >> they can take away my life, make me out as a monster and treat me as a monster but they cannot take away my heart. in my heart, i know i did not do these alleged acts. >>shepard: he blames the victims. what they have done do his life. it was quite frankly to many observers astounding. today before he delivered -- he had the sentence delivered the judge said the tragedy it is a story of betrayal. the most obvious aspect is your betrayal of ten children. sandusky calls himself the victim, even now. david lee miller is outside the courthouse where he covered the trial. david lee? >>reporter: it was an emotional day at the courthouse but worth noting there was no visible reaction whatever from jerry sandusky as you learned he would spend the next 30 years behind bars. interestingly the appearance has changed since the trial this summer. he was much thinner, also, rather than being dressed in a neck tie and sports coat